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Insomniac thoughts

I can't fall asleep tonight. Something is going round and round and round in my head and won't let me sleep.

Tuesday night, I was contacted by the video game company I used to work for. If I don't want my old job back doing developer relations, they asked, would I like to come back as an engineer for game development and possibly design again.

It's tempting. Financially, I know the games industry doesn't pay as well...I'd take a significant pay-cut. And it's testosterone-soaked and irritating sometimes, and all kinds of other things. But...I /do/ kind of miss that world. I still keep in touch with the developers I worked with - or sometimes against, in those game world rivalries - and there's a little part of me that misses that level of creativity. Heck, I miss sitting down with Samantha and Sonya once a week for lunch and completely dismantling and psychoanalyzing that week's episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

On the other hand, I don't miss the periodic 80-hour work-weeks to made a gold shipping deadline, or a publisher milestone. I don't miss the constantly cancelled holiday bonuses when the publisher ate our royalties with the excuse 'sorry, losses due to piracy'.



My advice

The thing about advice is you can feel free to ignore it. I paraphrase, but I'm too lazy to check my sources. ;b

But from my perspective... don't look back. You already know the pitfalls of that job, you've already BEEN there. You can't learn anything else from that, so why do it?

Not to say you shouldn't feel nostalgic -- hell, I miss working in the arcade. Doesn't mean I'll go back to slightly-over minimum wage to work with them again. Or my third job -- just assembling stuff in a factory. I wouldn't mind... it was actually kinda fun. But I know the problems involved with doing so. It's comforting to know I could go back if I needed to, but... why?

If you do consider a career change, though... it should be a forward jump, not a backwards one, I'd think. I can see the need for a creative work environment, but there's other places where you can use this. "Creativity" doesn't necessarily sync with "falling back into old habits."

But that's my take on it. I've not worked in the industry enough, but I can safely say that the prospect of 80-hour weeks was the main reason I opted out of a compsci major. Home life means just as much to me as work life.
You don't have to be a workaholic to be a success.

Just make a list of the pros and cons, and see what you ultimately decide; but sounds to me so far like you're happy with your current job and how they're treating you, and how they pay you, to be able to have those little financial luxuries.

Of course, there's something to be said for 'cutting edge', but you're there anyway, aren't you?

Just remember : decisions don't have to be made in the course of a single night, sleepless or otherwise (though I do hope you got -some- sleep!).
My father's been working at the same place for the past 30 years. Now they're trying to screw him around and get him out (suspicions talking here) because he's been there too long or he's too old... he's got a lawyer trying to build a personal grievance case against them at the moment, but this whole thing probably could've been avoided if he'd just furthered his career back up the track a bit. Somewhere along the line he must have been suckered into a false sence of job security and now he's paying for it.

If it's the security that appeals to you - that this company wants/needs you, screw them I say, you've got bigger and better places to roam through first.

As for insomnia... it's a pain and way past my bed time.