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[General] Weight, the Universe and Everything

I've come to the conclusion over the past few days that I'm feeling simultaneously accomplished and burned-out.

This week, I hit 155 pounds -- down from 223 in December 2004 -- and if I can maintain that for 3 more weeks, I make lifetime membership in Weight Watchers, and no longer have to pay. That's an accomplishment.

There's lots of other stuff. Work-code is going well, which is something to consider an accomplishment. My evenings-and-weekend coding project is going reasonably well, too. My writing is going a bit slowly later, because my hand was injured, but it's going well enough. I've gotten back into riding, and though my thighs hurt after several weeks without riding, it's going well enough again.

But despite that, I feel just... burned out and unmotivated right at the moment. Everything (well, except riding) feels like an obligation or a chore, rather than something fun. I don't really know /why/, or what I need to do to shake myself out of it. For the moment, I just keep plugging away.

I suspect it may be, at least in part, because the weekend trips I used to do haven't happened in months; ever since I got the puppy, I haven't really gone anywhere even overnight. No Vancouver trips, no Portland trips, nothing. So I've had no change of scenery and not much change of pace, and no doubt that's worn down a bit.

At any rate, if I seem subdued or less interested in engaging people in conversation, don't take it personally. I probably need to find a way to clear up some time, find something new and engaging to do.


Wow. You were looking pretty svelte the last time I saw you... but the numbers are impressive.

I think you're right, though, not being able to get out and go and do will take it out of you... I remember the spring after the dot-bomb when I was out of work, moping around not doing much and feeling terrible. But once I got moved and got to where I could afford to do a little, even if it was working for somebody else, I felt much better, to the point where when I finally got a chance at something that actually paid something, I had the enthusiasm to totally nail it.

YMMV, natch, but that's my take on it...
You need to find a good reliable dog sitter or kennel for Claire. Especially since con is coming and you will be going to Maryland for a few days!



Anyway, it'll be good for Claire to get a chance to play with other dogs in a free environment. Dogs are pack animals. It'll be good for her. :)
It's impossible for me to not take off on a 'mental health day' once in a while - to simply go wherever and spend the day doing something special for myself. So I agree with Kieri - find a doggy day care where you can drop off Claire for the day.

I suspect too that after the intensity of the issues with your hand and with the coding, your body and mind both need a rest and thus the lack of motivation. Time to rejuvenate!
Wow! Congratulations on the weight loss! I had no idea. :) Hope that you get over the burn out soon. I know who tough that can be.
Congratulations on the weight loss, Rachel. That's quite an accomplishment!
awesome!!! your success in ww was part of the reason i joined up! :)

what makes it so you get a lifetime membership?
You have a weight range appropriate for your height (it's in the books). When you hit that range, if you can stay within it for four weeks in a row then you gain lifetime. Then, as long as you remain in that range (not gaining above it, and not dropping below it, either) for at least one weigh-in per month, you remain a lifetime member and no longer need to pay.

If you fall out of the range a full month, however, then you have to pay for meetings until you get back into the range. (But it only takes one weigh-in per month to get back to not-pay, once you've achieved it.)

And yeah, I do feel like WW has worked well. :)
Congrats on meeting your goal and nearing lifetime! (I've strayed in the past several months, but I'm ready to get back on program.)

And I also congratulate you on figuring out that you need a break. Realizing that is the first step toward making it happen.
Congrats on the fantastic weight loss. :) It's amazing now that I've joined WW how many folks I'm finding are on it. (My very first weigh in is this Friday.)