October 17th, 2001

FF Sparks (Casual)

One is the loneliest number...

Every so often, I get a little melancholy about things.

Today, my really cute co-worker came in late; his girlfriend was not feeling well, so he called in, went over to her house, did her errands and cooked for her. Made sure she was comfortable and settled in, and then went to work. He's cute, funny, a good cook, a caring co-worker...

*sigh* Why is it that I long for the really great guys who are taken or unavailable, and can't seem to see things in front of my face? I watch people pairing off... my little brother is married, I hear another friend talking about engagement rings... and I feel a little like everyone suddenly grew up and left me behind.

Perhaps I'm just a bit down because this struck me at 1:30am...
  • Current Music
    perry farrell - song yet to be sung
FF Sparks (Casual)

o/` And oh, but I do fear for thee... o/`

It's odd how some things can be so sad, so melancholy... and yet somehow comforting.

When I was younger, I used to listen to my parents' Gordon Bok records, a folk-ballad singer from Nova Scotia. His true epic is 'Peter Kagan and the Wind', a 13-minute-long guitar ballad... melancholy and beautiful. Even though the song itself makes me feel a little melancholy even on its own, it comforts me a little bit. I can remember being curled up in my mother's lap, both of us under a blanket, with a fire in the fireplace... shivering because the heat ducts had frozen and the house was cold. And mom putting something on the record player to distract me... I remember hearing Peter Kagan and the Wind, curled up under that blanket. Hearing the wind making threats to Kagan ('You may be smarter, but I'm stronger... you watch!') and Kagan trying desperately to save himself from the storm ('Kagan takes the sail off the yard, and pulls it around him, saying Now you keep me warm. Wind says, He can't keep you warm... Wind snatches off north by northeast, saying I'll freeze you.')... and slowly freezing. ('Kagan says, Sail, I'm dying...keep me warm! Sail says, I'm sorry, Peter... I can't.')

And all the while, at home, his wife waits for him.

    o/` Kagan, Kagan, Kagan... bring the dory home! The wind and snow do follow thee, and oh, but I do fear for thee! o/`
  • Current Music
    Gordon Bok - Peter Kagan and the Wind
FF Sparks (Casual)

Drat! We lost...!

*sigh* Edgar, why couldn't you have just gotten a home run? The game would've tied and we would have gone into extra innings...!

Ah, well. We'll flatten the Yankees next time.